Blood and Guts

Today is my dad's birthday!!! As a celebration we went to the movies- being his birthday and all, us girls decided that it would be okay to see Rambo (Im a fan of Rocky- Rambocouldn't be too bad- plus I think Sly is some what attractive). my brother and sis- in-law met us at the theater, and $50 dollars later we were ready to roll. The movie starts with footage of a civil war in Burma... the images shown are so disturbing that I put my popcorn down. After the death of 100's of people- one being an infant thrown into a burning building- I left. I took my 12 year old sister by the hand and told my mom to call us when the movie was over.

I normally like movies- in general- I mean like my music taste I am all over the place. I like Rad and Young Guns, west Side Story and Boyz In Da Hood. But Rambo wasn't for me- at all. My mom swears that the older Rambo's arnt as bad and honestly I don't remember them. But the 30 minutes that I sat through this one will haunt me forever. I don't know if its just me lately but I have found myself giving up on a few movies recently, and it took me untill tonight to figure out wha it was- I'm scared.

I will watch any scary movie about monsters, ghosts or even animals- but when it comes to scary people... Im done. I can't understand why exactly why some people are simply evil. to want to hurt somebody, to get joy from it, to love it and long for it... it drives me nuts. I was watching Hostile 2 and Saw 2 (or 3 who cares) and I was mortified at what one human was doing to another human... like yikes dude lay off!!! and in Hostile people were paying huge sums of money in order to torture girls and kill them- for fun!!! Are you serious!!! They even had a fraking club with tatoos!!! How freaky can you get.

tell me what you think guys cuz I wanna know... these people are real people! They walk the same ground you do they could even be following you and heck they maay even read this blog...
~Nicole

God is Good

A lot has happened over the last few weeks since I’ve written. I failed my math class, again, but managed a 3.0 through the rest of the semester with only 1 B and that was in History. I got a 100% in my Child development class- like the whole class meaning I was perfect in everything I said and did… and as good as all of this is, I still can’t be enrolled in the math 10 class for next semester since I haven’t passed this one yet. I have decided that I’m Not going to tell my mom about my grade and I’m just going to handle it myself… for selfish reasons of course not maturity and independence. Now I need to retake the placement tests and place into math 10, I feel confident doing it… I just hope that it all goes my way. The other thing that Im writing about is the yahoo DSL that is arriving at my house tomorrow. Last time we did this it didn’t work too well, or at all. In my moments of peace and despair I prayed to God, I asked God to please help me to pass this test and handle it well, and to please let the DSL project run smoothly. And not that im a disbeliver, but I do like any reassurance I can get so I opened my bible and said God. Please give me some guidance and a sign here. And you know what the first verse I saw said? “ I prayed for this child, and the Lord has granted me what I asked of him” (1Samuel 1:27). GOD is GOOD!!!