I have two cousins that are my age (that I claim… long story), anyway I have been best friends with one of them since forever, but within the last few years we have fallen apart… he literally lives 14 seconds away, and only 3 doors separated us for years, but now its like the wall of China is plopped downs between us, so now matter how close we physically got, we were mentally miles apart.
Its bugged me because I still wanted to be kids and play my childish games, naming the stars, building forts and watching the Never Ending Story numerous times in a row. But he grew up and got popular and started driving and going to parties, being the person I desperately wanted to be… and somehow I didn’t fit into his little club. We never went to the same school, and I wish we had, at school I was a totally different person, not putting on a show for our parents… I could be the person I was when we just hung out- the person that was worth while to hang out with… but it didn’t workout that way…
Anyways, he came over today out of the blue and we just kida hung out. We sat in his car and just talked-oh and smoked some weird Indian weed. It wasn’t actually peer pressure, and he even said that, but when he offered me some, I didn’t refuse, and I think its because I am so done letting him be the cool bad boy in the family… I can smoke too you know I can drink and party… why should he get all the fun while I sit at home all the time… I’m done with it.
Supposedly he is bringing a bag of weed to me tomorrow, I don’t think he will but I hope he does… at the same time though I cant help but mention that if he doesn’t, I won’t smoke a joint like ever and if he does… I’m going to get high. What would you do? He has me convinced that we are one in the same. Drug down and miserable because of our families and bored and lonely. But when you smoke you are so happy and you feel good all the time, if that’s true then bring it on, I want to feel happy, really happy.
Thursday, December 20, 2007
Wednesday, December 5, 2007
Shawn Harris:
I’ve come to realize lately that I’ve put Shawn on this pedestal and feel stupid because I have.
I wonder what my friends think about the way I act when I talk about him… I know it would bug me. Can I think less of this guy? I don’t think so L ! He is so wonderful to me… Eric Clapton wonderful.
Curtis Lowe:
“Play me a song Curtis Lowe, Curtis Lowe… the finest picker to ever play the blues.” If you have no clue who Curtis Lowe is, then ask me… I write this kind of thing honestly to see how many people actually know these types of things…
Fergie:
I love how all of Fergie’s hits are all on the same CD. It has London Bridge, Fergolicoius, Glamorous, Big Girls Don’t Cry, and Clumsy on it… it is like wow Ferg, how many singles do you have on your CD… but I am super glad I “bought” it.
Now since Im bored Ill put up some lyrics… if you know them then fire away and send me the tile, artist, or next line.
Lets Start with an easy couple fill in the blanks…
1. “My girl likes to ___________ all the time”
2. “May your _______ fail before your _________ fail you”
3. “______ Red Wine” (If you don’t know this one, don’t even bother attempting any others….
4. “ I‘m as free as a bird … and this bird you cannot chain”
5. “It was back in 99 watching movies all the time when I went away for doing my first crime”
6. “I met this chick, she moved right up the block from me, she got the hotts for me the finest thing I’ve ever seen, but ohh no oh she got a man and a son though oh oh”
7. “Hate is a strong word, but I really really don’t like you”
8. “All that matters to me girl, win or lose in an X rated complete swirl of me and you.”
9. “I’ve got more wit, a better kiss, a hotter touch, a better fuck than any boy you’ll ever meet sweetie you had me…”
10. “ You have so many relationships in this life only 1 or 2 will last, your going through all the pain and strife, your turn your back and they’re gone so fast… so hold on to the ones who really care, in the end they’ll be the only ones there. When you get old and start loosing your hair can you tell me who will still care ohh yeah.”
11. “Say money money won’t get you too far get you too far.
12. “Let me be the one who calls you baby all the time, surely you can take some comfort knowing that you’re mine. Just hold me tight, lay by my side, and let me be the one who calls you baby all the time. I found my place in the world, I could stare at your face for the rest of my days.”
13. “ I don’t like you but love you, seems that I’m always thinking of you. Though you treat me badly, I love you madly.”
14. “ I told you I made dinner plans, for you and me and no one else. That don’t include your crazy friends- oh I’m done, with awkward situations and empty conversations.”
I’ve come to realize lately that I’ve put Shawn on this pedestal and feel stupid because I have.
I wonder what my friends think about the way I act when I talk about him… I know it would bug me. Can I think less of this guy? I don’t think so L ! He is so wonderful to me… Eric Clapton wonderful.
Curtis Lowe:
“Play me a song Curtis Lowe, Curtis Lowe… the finest picker to ever play the blues.” If you have no clue who Curtis Lowe is, then ask me… I write this kind of thing honestly to see how many people actually know these types of things…
Fergie:
I love how all of Fergie’s hits are all on the same CD. It has London Bridge, Fergolicoius, Glamorous, Big Girls Don’t Cry, and Clumsy on it… it is like wow Ferg, how many singles do you have on your CD… but I am super glad I “bought” it.
Now since Im bored Ill put up some lyrics… if you know them then fire away and send me the tile, artist, or next line.
Lets Start with an easy couple fill in the blanks…
1. “My girl likes to ___________ all the time”
2. “May your _______ fail before your _________ fail you”
3. “______ Red Wine” (If you don’t know this one, don’t even bother attempting any others….
4. “ I‘m as free as a bird … and this bird you cannot chain”
5. “It was back in 99 watching movies all the time when I went away for doing my first crime”
6. “I met this chick, she moved right up the block from me, she got the hotts for me the finest thing I’ve ever seen, but ohh no oh she got a man and a son though oh oh”
7. “Hate is a strong word, but I really really don’t like you”
8. “All that matters to me girl, win or lose in an X rated complete swirl of me and you.”
9. “I’ve got more wit, a better kiss, a hotter touch, a better fuck than any boy you’ll ever meet sweetie you had me…”
10. “ You have so many relationships in this life only 1 or 2 will last, your going through all the pain and strife, your turn your back and they’re gone so fast… so hold on to the ones who really care, in the end they’ll be the only ones there. When you get old and start loosing your hair can you tell me who will still care ohh yeah.”
11. “Say money money won’t get you too far get you too far.
12. “Let me be the one who calls you baby all the time, surely you can take some comfort knowing that you’re mine. Just hold me tight, lay by my side, and let me be the one who calls you baby all the time. I found my place in the world, I could stare at your face for the rest of my days.”
13. “ I don’t like you but love you, seems that I’m always thinking of you. Though you treat me badly, I love you madly.”
14. “ I told you I made dinner plans, for you and me and no one else. That don’t include your crazy friends- oh I’m done, with awkward situations and empty conversations.”
Really written on Nov. 14th
I am sitting in my History class and I am so frigging bored… we are talking about Communism and hey guess what… It doesn’t see all that bad… not that I’m a Commie (so Mc Carthy you better take my name off of your list).
But on another note… I’m upset because I can’t go to the Matches show in December… but I blame the guys for that one. Why would they have a show 3 days before Christmas? I miss Shawn and I really wanted to see him. lol I m not really mad at them tho, ill see them soon enough.
But on another note… I’m upset because I can’t go to the Matches show in December… but I blame the guys for that one. Why would they have a show 3 days before Christmas? I miss Shawn and I really wanted to see him. lol I m not really mad at them tho, ill see them soon enough.
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